Thursday, November 20, 2008

Bye Bye INDIA :(

It was 5.15am wen i reach the airport. I was kinda nervous. There are two reasons for that.
One is, am going abroad for the first time and the second reason is am gonna miss ma friends n family. Till date i had neva been away from ma family and friends for more than a week, but now am going almost 7000miles away from ma family and friends. There are no words to express, how hard a person will feel in that situation. But still i controlled everything n was smiling all the time. Its the worst ever thing to happen, but i have no other choice coz if i feel
bad, it'll upset my mom more, and i don't want that to happen.

All ma friends were with me except three. Santosh, my gal n Fahad. Well, Santosh was sick n he told me like he cant come. I guess he felt more bad than me for that. I missed him to the core. I called ma gal.
"We missed the train, 5 mins for the next train. we both will be there in another 20 mins", she told me.
She n fahad both from same place, and so they had decided to come together.
I went n hugged Sathi as soon as i got down from the car. Sathish, the guy who gave me the real meaning of friendship. The guy who had been with me in all ma goods n bads. I felt like crying out louder, when i think like, he's gonna be with me for just 3hrs. I dint show any of ma feelings outside. We started to walk towards the entry.

"lets have some coffee first", ma dad told all.
We went to the nearby coffee shop. I immediately started ma job. Yeah, took hell lotta snaps with ma sister, mom n ma buddies. In the mean time, ma dad got some 20 entry tickets. I called ma gal again.
"10 mins", she told.
We all went inside, n we got some two tickets extra. Ma dad gave it to me. I looked at ma watch, it was ten to 6 o clock. N yeah, atlast Fahad n ma gal came.

I went to the entrance with riyaz. Fahad luked so young in his red color Tshirt. I gave those extra tickets to them. Just a matter of some 10 seconds i guess, i took a snap with ma gal, Thanks to Riyaz.

vantha udane aarambichitiya??, fahad said.
I smiled at him and we went inside. I was thinking for years like, when n how to introduce ma gal to ma mom, n yeah this is an awesome chance . I took her to ma mom. She was sitting there with ma sister.
"Ma, this is *****, my friend. Thats it, a simple introduction is enough for now, i thought.
And to ma surprise, they both started to talk, wow wow, awesome scenes!!

I turned back, all ma guys were standing n talking something, Guess, they were discussing bout an Air hostess. She was standing near to them. My friends always rocksss.

I went near to them.
"Dei, two other guys are coming with me to jeddah. I'll bring them here after sometime. Avanga munaadi gethu kaamikanum da. Neenga elaarum pesara pechula, antha pasanga aadi poidanum", i told all.

"You don worry mama, just wait n see. We'll make sure that those guys will afraid on seeing you!", blaky told me, in a GETHU tone.
"Romba elaam merataatheenga da, pasanga alarida poraanga", i told them n went to ma mom.
Guess wat, ma mom n ma gal were still talking. It'll be danger if i allow them to continue, i thought n i interrupted in between.
"Appadi enna thaan pesareenga??, i asked ma mom, she dint reply, but smiled. Its great to see ma mom smiling, that too in the airport, when i very much worried like, how she'll manage without me.

Some 5 mins passed....

I got a call, "it must be subhi", i thought n took ma mobile out from ma jean. N yeah, ma guess was right.
"Hi da anna, happy journey. Don feel for anything, do mail me asap after reaching. She was keep on talking"..n i felt like am gonna miss her badly.
"Am gonna miss you da thongachi", i told her.
"Me too da anna, But be bold always, we both will be the same forever", she replied.
We both spoke for some 10 mins. There are days, we used to chat thro sms for a whole day. But those things n all are practically impossible here after, n that made me to feel hard even more.

I sat near ma mom.
'Ma, don feel bad, eat well, I'll call you daily. So dont worry. Ma friends will come to home frequently. Subhi will call you daily. So you keep engaged with them, take care of your health.......", to be frank i donno wat to speak, coz ma heart was pretty hard. But still i somehow managed to keep ma mouth busy.

Friends, Ma family, ma gal... how, hard it is to stay away from them. Felt like crying.
"Mama, come here da, we'll take a snap", ranjith called me.
I went, we all took a snap.

"Come to the entrance", Ma gal said.
We both walked towards the entrance. She took a ring from her bag! n then something we call KAAPU in tamil. I always love gift n this time its from ma love. Wowwwww, No words. I loved it.

Time passed like a giff, and for every passed second, i started to feel more hard, but still i was very conscious that i should not let anyone know that am feeling bad. I was keep on talking, taking snaps, cracking jokes n all other blah blah stuffs to make myself n others happy.

SV767 checkin starts!!, we heard the announcement. I was holding ma gal's hand, n after hearing the announcement, i tightened ma hold. Her face reaction shows that she's gonna cry out louder. I saw ma mom then, she already started crying n ma sister too. I had no clue like how to react. God, its one of the hardest situation anyone can possibly face, going far away from family, friend, love!!
I went to ma mom and hugged her.
"Don cry ma, i'll call you daily. Am always there for you....", n i was not able to talk anymore. All ma control gone in a second. I cried. N on seeing ma sister, i cant stop crying. I looked at ma friends, all there smiles were gone.
"DO I REALLY NEED TO GO??", i thought, but nothing can be done now!! I saw ma gal, she was crying, There are some situation in which one cant done anything other than crying and i was in the same kinda situation.

I went for checkin. It took some 30 mins for me to finish the process.
"Boss, can i go out n meet ma friends now??", i asked a staff there.
"Yeah you can, but you are not allowed to go beyond the gate", he told.
Who bothered about the gate n all, i wanna see them, thats more than enough for me i thought n went back to the boarding entrance. I went to ma mom first.
Her eyes showed that she had just stopped crying. I hugged her, thats the best ever medicine to make a person to feel good! I somehow managed to console her, but i can clearly see that she is controlling her feelings just for ma sake. And the same happened with ma sister.

"Machi, call me after reaching da. We'll put conference", blaky told me.
"yeah sure da, i'll", i replied.
"Mama, take care of ma mom da. Adikadi veetla poi paathuko", i told sathish.
"Dei, you dont worry da, we all are there. We'll take care, you just try to enjoy there n be happy, don feel bad", he replied.
"Enjoyement without you guys???", i thought!

"Dei...", Riyaz called me. I went near him,n ma gal was standing at his back. She was crying.
"Don cry da, am not goin far away!", tried all kinda bit dialogs , but no use!
She was keep on crying.
Now i got two things to worry.
1] I cant see her crying.
2] Wat if ma dad saw the scene, in which she cries n am consoling her.

Somehow i managed to console her.
"I'll miss you", she told me.
"Me too, I love you", i replied her.
She gave me a very very spl gift then, which i would rate as THE BEST EVER.

"Excuse me sir, are u going to jeddah?", a staff asked me.
"yeah", i replied.
"Its time sir, pls start for your emigration process", he told n went.
Ma heart started beating fast, n i felt the shivering in ma hand.

"Ok guys, its time for me. Am leaving. Will be missing you all, take care", i said
"yeah mama, we too will be missing you, all the best da, take care", ma guys told me.

"Ma, akka, naan kelamburaen, byee daddy, take care of your health", i told ma parents.
"ok da, be bold n happy. Don feel for anything, We too will call you daily. olunga saapdu, nerathuku thoongu. Be carefull withyour things, jeddah poita udane call pannu", ma mom was keep on advising me.

N yeah, atlast i started walking towards emigration. I walked for some 5 mins. I thought like i should not turn back to see them again, coz it'll make me to feel hard, but i cant able to stop myself turning back. They were at a long back, i waved ma hands to them,n they too did the same. I saw ma mom, she waved her hand. I immediately turned back then. walked few steps, thot of seeing ma gal, so turned back again n waved ma hands to her.


I was standin in the que, n sathish called me.
"Mama, pathrama poitu vaa da",
I noticed a shake in his voice.
'Dei, are you ok??", i asked sathish
"He dint reply, but instead he cried.
God, this is the first time am seeing sathish crying.
"Mama, pls don cry da", i donno wat to say other than these 4 words.
"Ok da, all the best. Take care. byee da", he dropped the call then.

I reached the emigration section, n after completing all the formalities, they made me to sit in the traveller's waiting hall. 30 mins to flight. Everybody around me were talking, but i heard nothing. I kept quiet for a minute, then bursted out all ma emotions n feelings which i had been controlling from the moment i got down at airport. I cried like hell.

"Passengers of SV967 are requested to get inside thro gate no - 4", they annoucned. But i was still crying.
"Mate, wat happened??, anything wrong??",a guy, sitting next to me asked.
"Nothing", i replied.
"I can guess wats happening in you, It happens you knw, even am also going abroad alone leaving ma family here. Be bold, everything will go on well", he told me n started towards gate 4.

I got in to the flight n switched on ma mobile.
"No mobiles inside", i heard a voice immediately. It was an air hostess.
"Sorry ma'am, but still i wanna use it now", i replied her n called blaky.

"Mama, naan ulla vanthutaen da", i told him.
"Good da, take care", he replied.
In the next five mins, i spoke to all, ma frnds, ma sis, dad n mom, but not to ma gal.
I asked sathish to give the phone to her.
"Ok da, paathuko, naan ulla vanthutaen. anga poitu cal panraen, take care of your health. ok va. Miss you, byeeee",
"All the best da, come back soon", she replied me. I hanged the line then!

Some 10 mins then, i was in air.
I looked down thro window, i can see nothing other than the sea water.
The days with ma family, friends everything came in to ma mind.
I'll miss them!

The place where i lived for 21 long years, the place which had seen all ma worries n happiness, the place where i learn what life is all gonna miss everything.

Byee Byee INDIA.